I was so excited to get this house clean and under control I loved it last summer when I could put Cory down for a nap and attack all the mess everywhere. Except now he’s not napping. He makes three times as much mess three times more quickly. My mom said to just pick one thing a day and do it. Sure, I get the one thing done and there’s eight other things that come up behind it. Jay told me to stop screaming about everything, but I feel like I’m in the movie 300! I know I can’t win but I just keep trying to pretend I can make a difference and at least feel better about something. Today it all just caught up to me and I was up to my ears in mess and to do lists and exhausted from an active little boy who won’t nap and is on constant go. I was actually looking forward to having a clean house and dinner on the table when Jay got home, but I can’t get a grip on any of it. Everywhere I turn there’s just a list. Call it nesting or whatever, but I have 7 weeks of summer to get Jay to get the garage done, clean out the closet, clean out the spare room, get Jay moved in downstairs and get Cory in his big boy room painted and the like because I won’t have time or energy when school starts before the baby comes. If it was just dusting and mopping and vacuuming I’d be fine. But things need gone through and organized and that takes time and then you need to find a trash bin or a place for it. Jay took Cory to VBS and it’s 6:30. All I really want to do is sit down with a book for an hour before they get back, but I just won’t sleep unless something is completed.

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